Rest in Peace Logan

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It has been a tough 48 hours. Between getting the news, trying to process everything, letting the rest of our friends know, it’s just been tough. I’ve never had to deal with something like this before. I am so unsure of what to do all the time. I feel like I’m on a wave, in the ocean. First I felt like a tsunami, overwhelmed with emotion, angry and terribly sad. Then, I became calm, like after a storm. I just don’t know what to feel right now. I’ve never been through something like this. I’ve never been good with dealing with my emotions. I’m just trying to stay strong for the rest of us.

I have a very weird group of friends, somehow we all ended up knowing each other, but today I want to talk about one particular group of friends. This is the group of friends I became close to throughout my Senior year in high school, and through out years after. These are the Geeks, but they were my geeks.

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It all started when I was lost at my new school { Arcadia H.S. } and I went up to this kid who was wearing a shirt that said “Ask me for help” or something like that. That kid later introduced me to some of his friends. One of those friends in particular, was in my Econ class. We bonded right away. We had the same first letter of our last name, so we were put in assigned seats next to each other. I’ve never been so thankful for that moment, because Logan gave me hope. He would invite me over to play Guitar Hero, and when he asked if I wanted to watch a marathon of Star Wars with his friends, I felt like I became one of the guys. I left those boys dumbfounded that a girl like me would be such a fan of something like Star Wars.IMG_8814

Logan handed me so many friends, like on a silver platter. I would not be here if it wasn’t for him. For his friendship, his kindness, his ability to make everyone laugh. “Do a barrel roll!!!” “Pouuuuuuund Cake!” Thanks to Logan, I was able to beat a dark part of me. When I wasn’t doing well, he always dropped everything to come help me. When I went through one of the most traumatic instances of my life, he was the one that picked me up and took me away from the bad.

I had so much fun with him. Whether it be car tag that ended with me throwing up from laughing so hard, or serious talks by the ocean; scolding from doing “bad things” to crying from being overwhelmed, Logan was the best. He is the glue that holds all of us together.

I am distraught beyond words. I’m going to miss you so much Logan. I’ve been missing you so much.

Thank you for everything you did for me, for everything you did for everyone. Thank you so much for saving me, I only wish I could have done the same for you. I love you Logan. I’ll see you on the flip side. Take care of all of us please. I can honestly say, I will never forget you. Rest in peace my friend, I love you.IMG_8816