gah.

It’s been really difficult to articulate in my brain and in words what I’ve been feeling the past two weeks. I know, life changes sometimes but it’s been really hard to cope with this one.

In the past four-ish months I’ve lost three best friends, I’ve ended a relationship, I’ve felt completely lost; on the other hand, I’ve made some friendships go from being just casual friends to people who are never ever leaving my life. I’ve also finished college. And, I’ve started seriously dating my best friend. Honestly, it’s been hard.

Maybe it’s just me but I feel scared that I’m moving on with life so fast. I mean, in the past week I’ve gotten called for 5 job interviews, I graduated from college, I’ve started thinking about the future. The scary thing is that the future is around the corner.

With these jobs I will be able to make enough money to finally move out. I say finally, because there comes a time when you should move out of your parents house. I didn’t get to do the whole college thing, where you move into a dorm at 18 and sometime between junior and senior year of college you move into your own apartment and then by the time you finish college you’re able to afford your own place because you have a job lined up because were able to intern somewhere during your junior year for one semester while you went to Europe the other semester. But really, I didn’t get the whole “normal” college experience, but I loved my college experience. Yes, I still live at home. No, I didn’t get to study abroad. The point is, it may be time to move out.

This is when the tough questions happen. Do I move out alone? With friends? If so, who? What if I can’t afford it? Will I be able to? Where do I move to? So many questions.

So yeah, it’s been a tough time. There’s a lot of new going on in my life and there’s a lot of change. I hate change. I seriously hate it.

I miss school already! I do, it’s stupid but I do. Thanks for letting me vent. I’m good for now.

“Let go of things you can’t change. Focus on things you can.”

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Capstone: Blogging Gratification Part Three by Elia Pacheco

MY RESULTS FOR MY THESIS!!!

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Hello again!

My name is Elia Pacheco and my specific Capstone research paper is specifically on blogs, it’s called: BLOGGING GRATIFICATION: UNDERSTANDING HOW READERS AND BLOGGERS PERCEIVE BLOGS.

On my second blog post I talked about my literature review, and how I would use the Uses and Gratification Theory and Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs Theory in order to facilitate my research questions and find out what I needed in order to prove that people do get gratification from reading blogs. Well, I DID IT!!! But, before I go into that, I will explain the way I was able to prove my research question and hypotheses.

 

Methodology

I was able to recruit a total of 201 participants for my study. I was able to recruit my participants via the internet. Participants answered a thirteen question survey, which not only analyzed their demographics (Sex, Age, Country of residence, etc.), but answered…

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I’m Perfectly Okay

Okay, so it’s been a few months now and I have decided to talk about it finally.

Yes, the boyfriend who I was soooo in love with and I broke up. Why? You don’t really need to know. But, since everyone keeps bugging me and asking me the same things all the time, [basically] we weren’t compatible anymore. I realized we did not want the same things. We did not have the same objectives. Sometimes you get comfortable, and it’s not the best thing for you but since you don’t want to hurt the person that you love the most in the world, you don’t say anything. You stop saying things that hurt you or things that are on your mind and pretend like it does not affect you or you don’t think about it, when honestly that’s all you do. [at least for me, that happened this time] There were many things said, many things that should or should not have been said. There were many things that happened that had gone unacknowledged for a long time, etc. I decided that it was time for me to take charge of my own life. I’m graduating from college for Christ’s sake!  I needed to figure out my life. And that’s basically all you need to know…

Yes, I will always love him, but I’m not in love with him anymore. Yes, I may or may not be dating around. Yes, I miss him and the friends I’ve lost as a results of this break up, sometimes. Yes, I have cried and will probably keep crying from time to time. No, we do not talk, at all, ever. Yes, I am ready to move forward with my life, both in relationships and in real life. Any other questions? k. good.

I head this song and it prompted me to write this post. These are my favorite parts of the song:

“This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m alright song
My power’s turned on
(Starting right now) I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me

Losing friends and I’m chasing sleep
Everybody’s worried about me
In too deep
Say I’m in too deep (I’m in too deep)
[…]
But there’s a fire burning in my bones
And I still believe
Yeah I still believe

And all those things I didn’t say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time”

Because I deserved better and I don’t care what ANYONE has to say to me. I’m graduating college, I’m having the best time of my life with all of my friends. I’ve not been this happy in so freaking long! I’m not trying to convince you, just letting you know that I am PERFECTLY okay! (:

“Falling in love is easy, its picking up the pieces, putting your heart back together and trying to move on…that’s hard.
[but I did it!]

Snape, the Real Hero

So, one of my favorite things in the world is fandoms. I love so many books, movies, comics, storylines, but my ultimate favorite fandom is Harry Potter.

My friend Kathleen Ramseyer and I are taking a Critical Rhetoric class (COMM 485) at Cal State LA, and we were talking about Joseph Campbell’s monomyth wheel. The Hero’s journey was introduced by Campbell in “The Hero with a Thousand Faces (1949)” in which he describes a common template for the hero’s journey.

We completely nerded out, and picked Snape as the real hero in Harry Potter.

  • Departure – This is the call to Adventure! The hero begins in his/her mundane average life but, new information comes to light that calls the hero off into the unknown.
    • Ordinary World – Dual life as a Death Eater and professor at Hogwarts.
    • Call to Adventure – Protecting Lily no matter the consequence. Even when he learns that Voldemort wants her dead.
    • Refusal of the Call – Mistreatment of Harry as a student. Doesn’t want to accept Harry as a piece of Lily, all that remains of her love.  Often when the initial call is given the hero refuses to believe or accept it. There may  be a variety of reasons for the initial denial of the call; this may be a sense of duty, obligation, fear, insecurity, inadequacy, or lack of support.
      • “No, I can’t”; the fear comes
    • Meeting the Mentor. Also sometimes known as supernatural aid. Once the hero commits to the quest, consciously or unconsciously, their guide becomes known. This mentor aides our hero through the challenges and aid him/her through their quest.
      • Overcome the fear by meeting the mentor – When Snape officially decides to align with Dumbledore and to prove that Lily’s death was not in vain.
  • Initiation
    • Crossing the First Threshold – Snape’s first real crossing is when he protects Harry during his first Quidditch match. He is countering the spell that the Professor Quirrell was producing, in public unbeknownst to him, in the presence of Lord Voldemort. This is when the hero first crosses into the unknown, begins their adventure, and leaves the comforts and limits of their ordinary life.
    • Allies, Enemies and Tests- If you can’t name at least 3 of these off the top of your head, re-read the books!  The hero works through a series of trials, tests, tasks and ordeals in order to begin their transformation into a hero.
      • Hero begins to experiment with the new world, who’s on my side, what’s good/ what’s evil
    • Approaching the Inmost Cave – When Snape is helping Harry to keep Lord Voldemort’s thoughts out of his mind, they are working on invading each other’s memories. Harry is able to access Snape’s memories of school witnessing the tormenting by Harry’s father and the kindness of Lily learning Snape’s love for his mother. This point (in my opinion) is critical to the hero’s journey. At this point the hero shows their acceptance to undergo a metamorphosis. The hero begins the final separation of the hero’s known world and former self.
      • Struggle in the new world
    • Ordeal – Snape must kill Dumbledore to keep in Lord Voldemort’s favor and continue to fight the good fight.
      • Hero has to go through a severe test
    • Rewards – They finally learn that Snape is on the hero side after all.
      • if the hero survives there is a payoff
  • Return
    • The Road Back- Snape sacrifices himself for the cause.
      • Hero collects him or herself and starts the finishing point
    • Resurrection – In his honor, Harry names his firstborn son after Severus Snape
      • Hero has to face death one more time, but in a deeper way
    • Return with The Elixir – Snape is forever remembered as a hero, and that goodness will always prevail over evil.
      • The hero learns a lesson and brings back something good to share with everyone else.

Through using Joseph Campbell’s Monomyth Wheel, we were able to explain how Severus Snap is the real hero of this series.

Check out the pictograph that Kat made here!!!

Thanks for nerding out with us! (:

“After all this time?”
“Always,” said Snape.”

Celebrities

So, I’ve met my fair share of celebrities… I mean, I do live in L.A.! haha [just kidding, we don’t see celebs everywhere all the time] … Anywho, Marcus and I were sitting at Starbucks yesterday and we saw the “All- State Guy” and I was all for getting a picture with him, but Marcus convinced me otherwise.

Good thing too, because, later that night I read this by my favorite blogger, Chantelle, also known as FatMumSlim. I thought it was hilarious, so I’m sharing it with you!

xoxo

“If you’re lucky enough to be different, don’t ever change.”
– Taylor Swift